Tuesday, July 29, 2014

Trials Are Just Blessings‏

To All I Love!

First off, HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD!!  I love you and hope you have a fantastic birthday!!  I wish I could spend it with you.  But there will be many more to come.  I hope you have a fantastic day papsaroonious (idk how to spell it).
 
 
 
Family, ummm so I only received one Dear Elder [you can write to her and she can receive the letter the next day at dearelder.com.  It's free!  Contact me, Sister Skaggs' mom, if you have any questions about that] this week... hmmm you have a lot of catching up to do.  You have one week to make it up. Mail is A BIG DEAL here.  We are always checking to see if we have mail.  Mom it definitely is not annoying.  I have A LOT more time to read them than I do checking emails.  I got the package. Thanks Mom!  And dad I got your letter!
 
This week was just pure craziness!!  I don't even know where to start.
 
I will start with Leah, our investigator, because that's where a lot of things stemmed from.  I love her to death!!  As we were teaching her this past week we LITERALLY were walking on egg shells when it came to talking to her.  Don't ask me why, it's just Leah.  She ended up bashing us multiple times throughout the week, yet again.  At one point I started getting defensive, and I as I started going into defensive mode a thought popped into my head.  I realized that as a missionary I am an official representative of Jesus Christ, that I'm standing in his place.  And It occurred to me that Christ wouldn't become defensive.  He would just love her and bare his testimony.  So that's exactly what I did. 
 
On Friday, I asked her, "Would you like to say the opening prayer?" and as I was asking the question I felt strongly to invite her to pray.  She was glad to pray and said she needed to.  Her prayer, even though it was 10 minutes long, was the most sincere and genuine prayer I have ever heard in my life.  She thanked God for putting my companion and I in her life, that it's because of us that she is staying here at the MTC and isn't leaving, that she will start to trust missionaries more because of us etc.  I don't remember everything.  It was just so sweet.  I, of course, was crying like a baby afterwards.  I could feel the spirit so strong in the room.  She asked us to come back Saturday.  When we came back Saturday she gave us this bent nail that represented the burdens we carry and that it's through Christ that our burdens can be lifted.  She sang this really pretty song to us.  Oh did I mention her voice is AMAZING and she plays the guitar!!  She said it's rare she gives such things out.  That only missionaries who touch her heart and just love her get it.  She thanked us yet again on Saturday and we just said, "You know, we didn't do anything, everything we said to you came from your Father in Heaven.  He loves you and needed you to hear the things we said.  It was through us that he was able to talk to you.  We did absolutely nothing."  We are going by for about 10 minutes the rest of the week because she really misses us. 
 

Oh, so we ate dinner with her every night last week and then immediately taught her at the end of that. So we spent a good two hours with her every day for about 5 days.  I have learned that we just have to love and be patient.  The Lord taught me a great deal of patience this past week.  He didn't give me what I wanted.  He made me struggle and be patient.  But it's a blessing because things will only get worse and so he blessed me with this trial now so that I will be better prepared for what I will be faced with on Temple Square.
 
Guess who got sick this week??  Yup, this sister missionary did.  As of last Wednesday I was noticing I wasn't able to go to the bathroom properly.  I just ignored it thinking all will be well later. Well I was noticing I was going pee about 16x a day.  And then starting Friday I was feeling really nauseous and was getting a pretty bad headache.  I was drinking 4 water bottles a day, eating salad, fruit and the main meal, getting 7 1/2 hours of sleep and so I didn't know what it was.  I decided to drink powerade to see if that would help.  Well, Saturday rolled along and my head was in so much pain.  But it was really neat because Heavenly Father was blessing me with the strength and energy to get me through the day and was allowing me to focus just enough despite the headache I had.  My teacher started getting worried and said I needed to go to the Health Clinic.  My branch presidents wife, Sunday, was a little concerned.  So Monday when it opened I decided I probably should go (I went cause I was kind of forced to).  I had a non stop headache for 48 hours at that point and nothing was happening.  I saw the doctor and after he checked my appendix, kidneys, bladder, stomach etc. he still couldn't figure it out.  He said that it must be an intestinal virus that escalated.  Yay.  He gave me a shot and then I had to sleep for a good hour and a half before they would release me.  He said it helps it to go away.  I left and it still wouldn't go away.  He told me to come back later if it was still
there.
 
Well I came back about 4 hours later after taking Ibproufen and they had to give me another shot and I had to sleep for another hour.  Afterwards he said the stress from Leah combined with the intestinal virus is what is causing this migraine.  I still have it as I type right now.  It's been 72 hours now with the migraine.  Saturday night I received a priesthood blessing and in it, it was mentioned that "the trials, challenges and afflictions aren't punishments from your Heavenly Father, they are blessings. That over time your body would heal."  Some other very powerful and neat things were mentioned. So I know all will be okay in the end.  I just need to be patient.  I feel so blessed to be put in this trial, because Heavenly Father is blessing me with awareness of how my body reacts under stress like that and he was informing me to not be stubborn and to turn to him instead relying on myself (in regards to getting better on my own).  Even with the migraine I still have enough energy to get through my day.  Don't get me wrong it hurts.  But I know this is simply just a blessing.
 
I feel strongly that as we look at our trials as blessings from God our life truly will change.  We will see things in a different light.  We will understand things more clearly and we realize just how much he truly does love and care for us.  Oh, and with that my doctor said I can't have anything dairy til Sunday (no cookies, milk, cheese, ice cream, cake, chocolate etc).  If it has dairy I can't have it.  I'm not allowed to have any juice concentrate.  And I have to ease back on how much water and powerade I have.  So basically I can just breathe in air.  But hey that's better than nothing.  LOL  I'm managing so don't worry about me!



The Elders in my MTC zone left Sunday and yesterday.  Such a depressing day.  They are some of my best friends.  Haha!  We had a little too much fun with each other, but we knew when we needed to get down to work. 

The elders in my district left Monday for Farmington, New Mexico and then the other elders left this morning for Everrett, Washington. We have a plan to all meet in Hawaii as a zone in a couple of years. We have all the details planned. I was like, "Yah, lets see if it happens." All the elders are like, "Sister Skaggs, think positive!!!!" Lol. I love them sooo much!!!




 


 
Since our district left they created a new district with the remaining 6 sisters and called my companion and I as the Sister Trainer District Leaders.
 Things are still going great with my companion and I.  I just love her to death!!  We are a perfect companionship.  We work so well together!  I'm going to miss not being her companion.
 
 
 
The food isn't that bad.  We have been fed tilapia, burgers, pasta, salmon, tariyaki chicken, chicken, steak, shrimp, gourmet salads, meatball sandwiches, you name it we have had it.  I don't think it's all that bad.  But I got and intestinal virus so yah.  But nobody else has gotten it but me.  So yah...
 
Visitors Center Training starts tomorrow!!  Ahhh I'm soooo excited!!
 
Oh so before I forget I met Sister Geddies somewhat uncle in the cafeteria yesterday (not enough time to explain) they are the Clark's. Such a sweet couple!!!!
 
In regards to gum I still haven't had any.  Cut cold turkey a week and a half ago.  Went from 7 pieces a day to none and surprisingly I haven't had withdrawals.  I'm still doing good in regards to not being with my phone and not watching T.V. has totally been fine.  Except can someone please give me an update on the Malaysia airlines flight???
 
Well my time is almost up. I love you all!!
Sister Skaggs

 

Saturday, July 26, 2014

Exact Obedience Brings Miracles 7/22/2014‏

To all I love, family and friends!!

I love it here!!  I don't think I have ever been in such a better place before.  It is definitely challenging not going to lie.  So, after you dropped me off at the curb, I went in and got my name badge.  That was such a neat moment.  I felt all official when I put it on.
 
 
 
 
My host took me to drop my stuff off and then I met my companion and district.  So the one thing you are so desperately wondering about.....who is Sister Skaggs's companion?!?!   Sister Bulaoat! Guess where she is from.... HAWAII!!
 She is 21 almost 22 and she wants to go into law.  She is the sweetest person ever.  We get along SOOO WELL!  The second I met her I knew things would go great.  We have been able to work well together so far.  We haven't had any issues yet and she is patient with me, very patient with me, when I go into one of the moods where I'm just harsh on myself and disappointed with how a teaching appointment went.  The hardest part having a companion is adjusting to our different teaching styles.  Other than that things have been perfect between us.
 
My District consists of 6 Elders and then my companion and I.  They are all 19 with one of the Elders being 20 almost 21.  The Elders are all fresh out of high school besides the 20 year old, of course.  I just love those Elders soo much!  We get along so great.  They were very shy.  I changed that of course! ;)  At the start I was getting us all distracted but then I learned the importance of "Exact Obedience".  So we now goof a round for 10 minutes and then dive right into the work.  It seems to be working really well.


 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
The Sisters in my room, there are 6 of us.  We are all headed to Temple Square.  We have Sister Desjourdey (Quebec, Canda), Sister Mahoney (Nova Scotia) yup that's right Sister Mahoney is now with us!!  Her visa came last Wednesday and so they immediately flew her out Thursday morning and now she is here!  Then we have Sister Fluckinger (Roseville, California), I love her sooo much!!  And then we have Sister Brooks (Oceanside, California).  So my companion and Sister Fluckinger received their mission calls 4 weeks ago.  We are SERIOUSLY the best of friends!  We are ALWAYS with each other.  And it's even better cause we are in the same zone.  Every night we sing a hymn together and then kneel and say prayer together.
 

Surprisingly the schedule has been pretty easy to adapt to.  Getting up at 6 am is not that hard. And I have had a lot of energy throughout the day which is really awesome.  I haven't had phone with drawls yet.  Only once when my teacher told me about the Malaysia flight being shot down by a rocket.  Then I had major with drawls because I wanted the details. Lol - gotta love my obsession with the news!
 
So guess what?  I haven't had GUM since Friday!!  Chewing Gum is a big no no here!  I was like you know I will be fine if I just sneak it. Well heavenly Father decided it would be really neat to teach me a lesson.  I kept hearing, no gum, obey with exactness.  And I was noticing things weren't going well with our teaching and I was very tired Thursday.  So I realized that maybe when I obey with Exactness the Lord will truly bless me.  So I decided to give it up and see what happens.
 
The biggest lesson I learned this week was when we obey we receive blessings, but when we obey with exactness we see miracles.  I gave up gum Friday morning and I haven't been tired throughout the day at all and our teaching and being in tune to the spirit has gotten so much better.

Yesterday we started teaching a 'real investigator' here at the MTC.  I have NEVER in my life been so challenged.  We go in there and her name is Leah.  She wouldn't talk to us and she kept saying "I have anxiety, I don't want to be here, I hate you Mormons, you're the ones that gave me PTSD, you don't love me, I have heard your spiel before, you're liars, etc."  It was really rough.  But I just spoke from the heart.  We met with her for an hour and a half.  She started really beating me up about my beliefs and saying I don't love my Savior Jesus Christ, etc. The moment she made those comments to me I felt the spirit stronger than ever before!  And I just started crying.  She asked if she offended me. And I'm like, "No. You just made me realize just how much I truly do love my Savior."  And at that moment I just bore my testimony to her with more power and love than I have ever done so in my life!  It was a true testament to me that my Father in Heaven was bearing witness to me that I do love Him.  He was reminding me to NEVER doubt, no matter what people say, that I do love Him and He is pleased with me, Sister Skaggs, with what I have and with what I am doing with my life.
 
 
When we left, I couldn't stop crying for 15 minutes because I have never been in such a situation before.  But I do know that my Father in Heaven is putting me through these tough trials to prepare me for what lies ahead.  Through these trials He is molding me into the missionary He needs me to be while I serve on Temple Square.  I know that experience happened for a reason.  Because when I get to Temple Square I have to be bold and declare the things I know to be true.  I know I will be mocked and made fun of by those who don't believe.  But I do know this gospel to be true.
On Thursday, our Branch Presidency asked my companion and I to be the Sister Trainer Leaders (The zone leaders over all the sisters in the branch).  So we have the opportunity to welcome the new sisters and to make sure they do alright and are being taken care of while they are here.  When he asked me, I was like "why me?  I'm not fitted for this assignment".  But I do know there is a reason. My Heavenly Father needs me and is trusting me to do this assignment for some reason.  What and why does He need me to do it? I don't know yet.
 
Also, mom, I'm sorry to inform you I wont be home for 2 Christmas's!!!  I'm SORRY!!  My expected release date is Feb. 3rd 2016.  Which means I will be out for 18 1/2 months...  Crazy, I know right!
 
Oh, so Tess Lundquist guess what?!?!?
 
ALL of the sisters learning Russian and going to Russia live next door to me.  I told them you were coming and they are sooo excited to meet you and they were like she will probably live next to you or near you.  I'm soo excited for you to come!
Well that's a lot!  I love it here!  It's hard in it's own unique way.  But that's the only way we can grow. If life was easy then we would never grow.  I know this gospel to be true and I know without a doubt I am supposed to be on a mission.  I'm so grateful for the trials my Heavenly Father is putting me through right now.  I wouldn't want it to be any other way.  It's rough, but I know He loves me and is right by my side.  And it's through the atonement and knowing my Savior, Jesus Christ, suffered everything for me that I know this isn't all that bad and that things will get better.

 
Oh I finally found the other Sister Skaggs!!!  She lives in La Jolla!!  We see each other all the time!  It is hilarious!!!





P-day will be next Tuesday and Friday.  So in a week.
I love you all!!  And hope life is treating you well!!
 
With much love,
Sister Skaggs

P.S. Note from Sis. Skaggs mom - here's some more pictures in case you're interested:








 

Sunday, July 13, 2014

Final Goodbye

     Well this is it. I wont have time to post anything later on so I figured I should get it done now while I still had the time. Later on this evening I will be getting set apart as a missionary for The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. It's crazy to think this day has come.
      My emotions are all over the place right now. I am excited, nervous, anxious and scared. But overall I'm looking forward to this new adventure that lays ahead.
      I just want to leave you with my testimony. That I know the gospel of Jesus Christ is true, that is something I cannot and will not deny. I can testify of this because I have seen the blessings that come from striving to live it's teachings. I know Joseph Smith truly did restore this gospel upon the earth that he did see God the Father and his son Jesus Christ. I can testify of that because I have felt the spirit bare witness to me of it being true. I know with all of my heart that God lives that he knows each of us by name, that he loves us unconditionally. I know that our Savior lives, that he took upon himself all the sins of the world. That every sin we have ever and will ever commit he took upon himself those sins. He took upon himself all the suffering and sorrow we will ever feel. He knows us perfectly. I can testify of this because I have felt his love, when I have needed it most. I will not ever deny that my Father in Heaven loves me, and that my Savior loves me and sacrificed his life for me. I know the Book of Mormon to be true, that it was written for our day for a purpose. I can testify that as we open our hearts to the teachings found with in it we will be directed towards the answers we are searching for in our life. I know we have a living prophet today President Thomas S. Monson who leads and guides us, who receives direct revelation from our Father in Heaven for us today. I know all of this to be true. I can testify that as we allow the spirit to touch our hearts we will receive a special witness of the truthfulness of these things. I will not ever deny the truthfulness of these things, I have felt the spirit bare witness to me of the truthfulness of these things and that's something I will never deny.  I leave these things with you in the name of our beloved savior Jesus Christ amen.

Love,
Sister Skaggs

Thursday, July 10, 2014

The Waiting Period is Almost Over

     You know ever since I was a little girl I have always wanted to serve a mission. When the age changed I was in complete shock that well I could be gone in a year and a half.
       At the end of Senior year several of my friends left which was exciting, but at the same time it was weird being 18 and having friends leave already. Then I went to college, met a guy, and then had to send him off on a mission in January. After he left on his mission, it slowly started to hit that I would be leaving in 6 months or so. Two months after he left I opened my mission call and realized I had four and a half months left. Which to me seemed like an eternity away.  During those four months I prepared and was working hard to build myself into the missionary my Father in Heaven needed me to be before I left on my mission. I have always been excited to go, but I guess you could say I have always been in denial that it would actually come. In better terms I have been in the 'Honeymoon' stage. Two weeks ago, two of my close friends left on their missions, and after they left it really hit me that I am leaving.
     Waiting all of these years to serve a mission and waiting these past four and a half months to go is almost over. There is no more time to be in denial, there is no more time to sit in the 'Honeymoon' stage. This is it.
     As I look back at this waiting period I now understand why certain trials occurred. My Father in Heaven was shaping me into the person he needed me to be for this next chapter. I'm not perfect, I don't have a perfect body, I'm not the most outgoing person in the world, I'm not the most spiritual person that exists, I'm not patient, I have not been the easiest person to get along with. But I do know one thing, my Father in Heaven, with all of these imperfections sees me, Jennifer Skaggs, fit enough to serve in his place on Temple Square. My Father in Heaven, has never required of me to be perfect. He most certainly doesn't expect me to be the perfect missionary. But I do know that he expects me to strive to be a diligent hard worker, one who is in-tuned to the spirit and is willing to submit themselves to his will.
    This waiting period is pretty much done. I'm excited, I know this is going to be hard, trials will be thrown my way that I have never experienced before. I will be challenged with things that I never thought he would challenge me with. But I do know one thing, he trusts me, trusts me enough to allow me to go on a mission and to serve in his place on Temple Square.
    I say these things in the name of Jesus Christ Amen.

With all of my love,
Jen Skaggs